M is for Moxie
Who could we be by accepting that the world needs and craves our largeness?
There are moments when I am fearful of my own greatness. It had been shared over and over just how much was housed inside of me and I spent too much time in denial of those truths.
I was unsure of what greatness was. What did it wear? What did it read? Would I recognize greatness if it walked into the same room in which I was standing? I decided that because I had no example of greatness, because I could not understand it – it was unobtainable for Shefon.
I could not escape the boxes I built around myself. I decided in my mind that I would never be great. My mind, became its own carefully constructed prison – and there I kept myself; chained, shackled, bound and uninspired by the idea of freedom. There I remained – content with the creation of my own limits.
Over and over again I wanted to experience courage, but it would not present itself. Again and again, I wanted to be brave, but was hesitant at the belief of the immensity of my spirit. I wanted to make myself small. I didn’t want my shine to dim the light of others. Have you ever felt that? Have you denied or betrayed brightness of your light? The power of your presence? Your intensity? Your enormity?
I realized I was making it all much more difficult than it had to be. I simply chose. I chose moxie.
noun // force of character, determination or nerve
Moxie was more than courage. Moxie is acting in spite of fear, following your heart and facing your most painful moments with faith.
Moxie is choosing to remake your mind and changing your world; shifting your thoughts to transform your life.
Moxie is the refusal to whisper even in the midst of your roar being misunderstood.
Moxie is living a life that is bold and uncompromising. It is an eagerness, an energy. It is the audacity in reminding ourselves that we are bold and brilliant and magical – and will defy any law that anyone, including ourselves, have written that says otherwise.
My biggest accomplishment has been accepting that I am not the woman I thought I was or the woman everyone wanted me to be.
I know, recognizing our power is terrifying but it is time to show up for the demand on your greatness. Accept you fill the empty spaces and warm the hearts of others. It is your obligation to light the world on fire, send it up in flames, set it all ablaze.
Get you some moxie, girl.
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